Just got back from my follow up doctor's appointment. Ran a bunch of tests. Asthma. Inhalers. Heart racing. Fun things still. But I requested the week off from work. For several reasons:
1. I fucking deserve it. I have been freaking the fuck out since 3 in the morning on the third.
2. I'm juggling a shit ton of drugs. I don't know what they do. Which gives me anxiety. Which is also one of the reasons I have one of the drugs.
3. The inhaler I've tried for the first time for asthma gives me a rapid heartbeat, which makes crossing the room difficult and I'm out of breath all the time.
4. I didn't get a birthday.
So here you go. An additional week to celebrate. A present to myself. Thanks, self.
So maybe in a few days I can start planning what I want to do and be normal. I'd love to be normal again. Yes please.